Hello my dear friends,
I know it has been a very long time and a great journey has been taken by me.
One of heart break and slippery slides into sin and darkened and a bottom I never knew existed for me.
I mistakenly remarried out of fear because i had never ever been alone and that has proved very painful but choices i made after led me down a very slippery slope. I came to the south as a standby on a standby on my way to Australia for a few weeks and full of God and His path set before me. We it took no time for me to be strayed and instead of climbing a stairway up this journey i took a water slide down a very fast slippery slope and although i never lost my faith in God i did learn some very hard and valuable lessons. My heartbreak had only just begun as i spent the next six months running much like Jonah away from the call of God not scared but feeling unworthy and unnecessary.
How is it Gd can use someone like me? Broken and hurt and shredded to my very being? I really still have no idea but i am in a better place and unlike the end of Jonah where no repentance was recorded mine is recorded here. I may go into my experiences to some extent in days to come but just getting back to you was important to me.
I’m currently in Florida where in intend to stay and make a life. I have an amazing church family and friends and a good support system here and as you can see i have begun writing again. Many may judge me and condone my choices but the place i am at now it doesn’t really matter. This journey was fraught with a lot of bad things and choices but was also proven to make me grow in ways and see things in a totally new way, a way I wouldn’t have seen with my rose colored glasses and i am truely thankful for the things i saw and the people i met and the place God placed me at just the right time to be used for His Glory.
I’m learning about the fruit of the spirit in an amazing way by a book by Dr, David Jeremiah called A Life Beyond Amazing. And how these sweet things we draw on fruit as a child are at the bases of our very Christian walk and how they are not just sweet things we should do but most are commands from God. I’m sure ill be sharing more as time goes on from that also.
But my dear friends know i am on the path upward again and although not by any means perfect or not struggling daily i am very well getting my heart in the right place and my life is stronger for the things that have happened. Not that god sends us on those paths but He does use what happens for His glory.
Because of His grace and love is why i am here today and by His grace I can continue to be writing and encouraging you.
Be blessed
Always
Suszi
